i’m going crazy, i’m losing my mind

this girl is SICK:

her runs and range are out of this world. what’s in the water over in england that’s producing all these neo-soul british women?

i’ve got an audition on sunday. as always, i feel totally out of practice. i should make it a habit to practice a monologue weekly just to keep it fresh in my head. oy vey. i’m really starting to worry about my memory, though.

for instance, this morning, i was making a cup of coffee using our espresso machine. my usual routine:
– dump out old grounds from the portafilter
– use portafilter to measure fresh beans
– pour beans into grinder and grind
– transport grounds back into the portafilter and brew
… not as difficult or confusing as it sounds.

EXCEPT i totally forgot to grind the coffee beans at all. i just stuck the portafilter with the whole beans in it back onto the machine and started brewing. i was brewing beans. whole beans!

when i saw that the coffee was coming out clear, i realized my mistake and had to grind the steamed beans. it still tasted really good, but oh my god — what is going on with me?

i wonder how much of this has to do with the fact that i’m totally inactive and the temp jobs i’ve been getting have not been challenging AT ALL. i think that’s why i’ve been like a lion pounding on any opportunity to take on a leadership role through KT (like producing this next big show of ours). my brain cells are dying. i need to do some daily sudoku or something!!!

tonight is the big NI and AL lovefest dinner. we have a delicious menu planned. it’s a beautiful day and i’m sure it’ll be a fun evening. had a chance to catch up with JL last night while NI and AL snuck out for drinks and dessert with AL’s friends. we were talking about some pretty deep things – forming new friendships, recognizing in yourself the attributes you kinda despise in other people, relationships. it’s unavoidable, but still can’t believe that she’ll be heading away for school in just a few months. the bay will definitely suck without her.

bagh — let’s not think about it. just means we got to have more QT!