the grass is greener on the other side.
that’s been my response to most everyone who’s asked me how it feels to be unemployed.
when i’m employed, i want to focus on my creative pursuits. when i’m unemployed, i want a stable job. what i really want is a stable job in a creative field, but that’s neither here nor there in respect to this post topic.
point is, i’ve noticed that i’ve taken this grass is greener attitude with almost everything in my life. for instance, i can’t take my mind off of last weekend’s party where i felt somewhat disrespected by one of the guests. it made me wish that i had less — err… dramatic people in my life. dealing with divas other than myself can get a bit taxing after awhile. but on the other hand, these are some of my favorite people precisely because they have such supersized personalities. my life would be so boring without them. and barring their ridiculous behavior sometimes, they’re actually some of the most loyal, kind, and thoughtful friends i do have.
at this point of my life, i need to learn to accept my realities and be more present. it is what it is so just let it be. and most important of all, enjoy it. i don’t want to be lying on my deathbed thinking i should’ve enjoyed this side while i was still on it…
Will Dao 